I’ve been on this mission over the year – to go back and re-read all of my rant columns over the years. It’s for this collection that may or may not be included in a series of short stories I recently agreed to write. As I look back at them, I realized just how many of them there are – and how all over the place I was with topics ranging from my kids, to my work, to my family and on through to my supposed chemical imbalance/bi-polar disorder period.
It’s hard to figure out if it was really me that was all over the place when I wrote topically or if my life itself was just that messed up. I do know that because of the type of environment I was brought up in and was surrounded on all sides by over the years, I was led to believe that I had serious psychological issues, that I was an alcoholic, a drug use/abuser and someone who was prone to making very poor life decisions. Truth is, none of that was true, not even close – and the only really poor life decision I ever made was the one that kept me in that environment for so long.
I really don’t take that much time out of my life these days to point fingers at anyone and say “he did this to me” or “ they were awful at this” or even “those are all lies” because quite frankly, at the end of the day, I don’t have the time or the energy anymore to play those silly games. I own the choices I have made in life, good or bad – and I am proud of that. It speaks to who I am at my core – I truly believe that you should treat others how you wish to be treated and that if you do something that is even a little bit outside the lines, you should at the very least be prepared to deal with whatever consequences may come your way, should it backfire on you.
You can believe that it’s karma or kismet. You can attribute it to destiny or fate. You can even go as far as to live your life in a manner which brings about a series of serendipitous conclusions to life events. All I know is that I live my life with a very simple and honest outlook, and maybe that’s because my best friend is my soulmate and the love of my life and I just want to grow old with her, but I will take it, because there’s nothing like being happy and being loved unconditionally.
It puts life into perspective and I highly recommend it to everyone. #GMK