By Katherine Cremin

On this day. The heartbreak is beyond words. I had an appointment today which took me to the MBTA for transportation. I vividly recalled this day 23 years ago when I was taking the train home from work not knowing what to expect when I got there but scared out of my wits.

Somehow a nun was beside me on the train and reached out to me and helped me to pray. I don’t know what I was praying for, I just know she may have saved me from losing my mind. I recall every second of that day. My Christine also saved me from losing my mind. She was my strength when I walked through the door to my home and her aunt told me Deanna was dead. I did not know what to do. I did not know anything. I felt like I was not even present.

People, friends and family started to come over and I remember all Christine’s friends being in her bedroom wondering who could have murdered Deanna.

Losing my daughter and learning how she was murdered was too difficult to believe and or understand. I could not process it at that time. As the day went on Deanna’s aunt Kathleen came over and I knew she could identify with me. I found strength from her. Thank you Kathy. In case you never knew it, that is true.

It was when my brother came that I knew I was horrified. He is a Vietnam Veteran. I will never forget talking with him and feeling literally like the floor under my feet was falling and I was falling with it. His presence also helped to save me from losing my mind. I am so thankful to all the people who came to my house to be there for me and for my family.

Now here it is 23 years later. You know how I feel. I am going to solve this murder and I am going to do it soon. The person who murdered my daughter Deanna also severely damaged my family. In ways that cannot be explained on here.

He did not destroy me. He came close. Today I am a force to be reckoned with. I believe I can get him, and get him without violence if he is lucky enough for that not to happen. I saved him once. I won’t do it again.

I just felt I would share these thoughts today. I hope that every member of this group knows how grateful I am for their love and kindness and continuous support over the years. There are a few people who lack compassion and have been unkind and bottom line undignified and disgusting. But that is on them. Shame on them.

I will end it like this. I have my grief and my heartbreak tucked away in a safe place. In my heart I have more strength than you can imagine. I am so thankful for your kindness.

There will be Justice for Deanna Cremin. I promise.